It hurts here too

In deep dark corners of my mind, at 3:43 am while amidst layouts... i remember every song i've sung.. the warm touch of the amber skin.. the comfort of knowing there is someone out there that measures their life up to me.. that feeling of substantiality feels lost now.. left to y own devices i feel the last vestiges of my sanity losing grip from my soul.. im lost inside me.. heart moans in memory thats etched as pulse is etched in the veins.. kahe nahi aave.. mora piya.. nayan tarse lage na mora jiya, nahi aave piya.. kaahe nahi aave mora.. piya..

I am gonna start Jap Lessons Soon..

Today we started playing LuminaRO, honestly coz i had no clue what to do on a high-rate server where you have 255 leveled chars with +10 equips and 320 million zeny... as always, HR servers get boring after sometime..

And look what i found.. you have created a champion of a character in Cafe World :O
You look like a cat that is sad coz it was just dunked in a concentrated mixture of hydrochloric, nitric and hydro-sulphuric acid   \O_O/

and i found your character snuggling besides my character in rids' cafe.. LOL

A trip to Ed-wise

Finally shook my laziness off.. and went to meet our beloved intl-education-dalal Ashish at Edwise.

Lotsa new developments.. for starters.. my resume & SOP have already been dispatched to AAU.. and they have accepted them too !

Bottom-line being, except for doing the whole visa thing and the Plane Tickets.. nothing else is left to do !!! (procedurally that is..) Damn that got a smile on my face even through all this..

He helped me fill up the mock form for the visa application..

About the housing, well.. he said that ill have to write a request letter to Josh Wu regarding my six-month plan for the hostels.. am gonna try.. but prolly what is gonna happen is that i will end up staying there for the whole year.. the prospect is definitely not bad... i was hoping for a way to spend less. Well lets see how that goes..

There is this thing called the The Stars and Stripes lounge thing.

So i asked Ashish if its worth paying the Rs. 250 fee that is levied there..
He said that its much more comfortable and hassle-free... the exact way i felt i would wanna be before my interview. Also, the visa interview would be taken by a person who is either Caucasian (white) or an American of Indian descent (i.e. a US citizen).

The I-20 form that i have with me is the key to getting my loan-sanction letter. If my preparations are prompt, I can get the visa by the second week of June.

While coming down from the building, a subconcious part of me was like 'wow good timing for me to come here now i have some time and i can catch a rickshaw and go to bandra mebe get a chocolate for omg i cant and i forgot that i cant..'  :(  There was this heaviness while coming down from the stairs.. like how a person may feel if his heart physically sinks and goes right into the stomach..

I hope my post was comprehensive.. i wish i could tell this in person..

None else's

Toothy

P.S. : I have always loved you..

Feels empty. like a sudden vacuum created due to the absence of the very air you breathe..

Hence i write right now, hoping that you will read this.. and mebbe learn what all is up on my part..

Please know that its never been easy on my, though it might have never been as hard as it was for you..

I hope you wouldnt mind reading my blog-posts.. its only the first time that i am doing this..

I want this to be a way i can have you as a part of my life, know what all i am doing these days..

Miss you Scaly One

Toothy